Glad its the weekend, tired of boredom at work

I’m glad it’s the weekend at last. I really didn’t want to come into work this morning. I had to literally drag my body out of bed. I got dressed and got back into bed again. Can you fathom that? That’s how desperately I wanted to stay home. That’s how badly I wanted it to be the weekend. The weather is just so nice these days. The sky looks beautiful with its spread of clouds.

Ah..N i happened to check out Robin Sharma’s book on daily inspirational quotes and the one for today talked something in the likes of taking a short vacation while you’re at work. Relaxing your mind, taking deep breaths and imagining we were at one of our favorite holidays destinations. Envisioning the surroundings, hearing the sounds and evoking all those emotions. It sure feels good to read it and for a second when I did close my eyes, I did get relaxed! But hey!! I want to go on holiday, not just visualize it. I want or even more precisely, I need a break. I am in need for my brain to breathe.

I need to venture out and do something on my own in terms of business. I am tired of coming to work and not being able to do anything. In my line of work, due to the global recession and the financial slump work is a bit haggard at the moment. I am bored out of my skull and am getting extremely crabby about everything else around me cos this reason. I realize that I am not being productive and its really frustrating. I need to be doing something. My life, my work needs to make more sense to me than this.

I need to start my own business. Ah anyways and on top of that feels like the entire world is out there to attack me. I am trying to figure out the positive in this but its gets difficult every single day. I now realize why its so hard for me to wake up to work. Cos I really don’t have any!!

So there is nothing motivating me to sit at my desk 9 hours of the day. I may as well be sitting at home and doing craft for example. But then I’m so used to having my own money, I don’t know whether or how I ever will allow myself to be dependent on someone else to provide me with money. There are so many ifs and buts, but I seriously would rather be sitting at home and paint for example. There is an assortment of things I can think of that I could be doing other than sitting idle at my desk. Hmmmm let’s see:

1. I could help out with the mentally challenged children

2. I could join a craft club and start painting again

3. I could probably take up after my other passion- photography

4. I could start my own business which has been on my mind since ages

The list can go on and on. I don’t want to think more and depress myself thinking what the hell I’m doing right now, at this point in my life. If I could support myself I would definitely not be working, at least not what I am doing at the moment. Oh! Don’t get me wrong, I love the job or the nature of the job, but I hate that I have nothing to do and I’m sitting idle. Boredom is getting to me and there are days when I could pull the hair out of my head! Any little thing is enough to upset me these days and that’s cos I feel completely useless. But guess that’s life. Cést la vie

Work is not gonna catch up anytime soon. So I definitely need to divert my mind with other things. Guess I’ll take each day as it comes and just to cheer me up... its the weekend!!!! Hurraay!!!!!

Random blabberings

It’s only Tuesday, and I still have another two more days to the weekend. I often wonder whether it’s only me who waits so fervently for the weekends. Nah! I’m sure; almost everyone out there would probably be like me. However I wait with greater anticipation. (at least that’s what I think). It’s almost like I wake up every day during the week with the hope that its one day closer to the weekend. Ah! Such is my life- Cést la vie.

I was watching Dr. Phil on TV last night (not that I am a habitual viewer, but while flipping channels if it’s on I do watch it) and there was this girl who looked gorgeous to me but was extremely unhappy with her looks. She wanted to have a minimum of 8 plastic surgeries done and that was to start off with. I just looked at her and thought to myself, how petty we can all become. I say this because even me myself, I do crib about the slighted of marks on my body. I don’t obsess about it but yeah I do have my qualms. I always believe in looking at someone who is not as privileged as us whenever we sulk over a problem. I mean for heaven sake look at someone who’s a victim of a third degree burn and is scarred all over.

There was another candidate on the very same show who had undergone secondary Rhinoplasty and was suffering extreme repercussions. A part of his nose became black and then it fell off. I know it sounds eew in all, but think of the poor guy. He had to undergo several reconstructive surgeries and had a very bad scar across his forehead due to one of the surgeries that was done to refigure his nose.

All this goes to show greed gets us nowhere. Whether it’s being unsatisfied with our face, body shape, job or whatever else we are disgruntled with. But this is not to say that when I am a older I wouldn’t consider Botox or its equivalent. I am not sure – I haven’t reached there and I wouldn’t know till then. I do believe in ageing gracefully but I also believe in looking after ourselves.

Self esteem is pivotal in everyone’s life and especially in mine. I am a self made person and by the grace of God have reached so far. But even so I have many insecurities in my life which I do try and overcome. Some insecurities will always remain, maybe not in the conscious part of our active brains, but some that lies deep embedded in our subconscious minds.

Anyways coming back to what I watched on TV last night, I am quite enjoying expressing my thoughts on the different events that I come across throughout the day. Whether its from the television, newspapers or something I read on the internet. I think every topic is worth talking about. I love talking and enjoy listening to others too.

No wonder I’m getting hooked on to reading others blogs and blabbering away in mine too. Ans moreover work is not at all busy or exciting at this point in time so I have plenty of time to spare. Its all good. Cést la vie